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Sunday, September 10, 2017

Car Crash on Maple, Zanesville, Ohio - Friday at 6/6:15pm

Now, this is my own speaking on this subject because I was IN IT. It was terrifying and it knocked the breath out of me. My neck is mostly whats sore now. Yesterday it was my back and neck, and my hips a little bit. I went to the ER and they used their hands to check my body, no X-rays or MRI's, ANYTHING. 



Now, mind you- I have mild levoscoliosis and kyphosis.
All they said was that I had WhiplashWhiplash is a neck injury due to forceful, rapid back-and-forth movement of the neck, like the cracking of a whip. Whiplash most often occurs during a rear-end auto accident, but the injury can also result from a sports accident, physical abuse or other trauma.
Common signs and symptoms of whiplash include neck pain, stiffness, and headaches. Most people with whiplash recover within a few months after a course of pain medication, exercise and other treatments. Some people experience chronic neck pain and other ongoing complications.
Whiplash may be called a neck sprain or strain, but these terms also include other types of neck injuries.

I was with my Mom, passenger side seat. Seatbelts on, luckily. It's good that we didn't have any bleeding or severe injury but I'm afraid for "Whiplash Can Cause Permanent Damage. ... Whiplash is a neck injury caused by a rapid movement of the head forward, backward, or side to side. This motion can cause brain injury, muscle spasms or tearing, ligament stretching and instability, and even fractures of the spine that can cause permanent disability", which typically does not show up until sometime after such things.

It is good to see how I react in emergencies. 

As such, I felt more logical. Thinking, instead of panicking. Had a moment where I blamed myself and started to panic because I don't go outside of the house often, mom just reassured me that it wasn't my fault. Had there been blood I probably would've been worse.
I guess we'll just have to see how this all goes.

I currently had already had an appointment for an x-ray of my neck, so that's good. I just gotta go in any day and they'll do that. I also have an appointment for my broken tooth removal, from there I may go for cleanings and such things, to try and keep what teeth I have left. I was a bad child, too busy with bullies, flirting, video games, roleplaying on the internet and anime on adult swim and cartoons on cartoon network. Never made a habit of brushing, paying for it now. 

I also have an appointment for an EMG, I've been told I'm not gonna like it by one person at work and my mom's boyfriend just kinda said it was whatever, not good though. Luckily no blood drawing. Don't have to have that done until my next visit with Mimi in Columbus.

Also, I'm sick. I wish my immune system worked better in the cold. I love fall/winter. Cool air. Camp fires. Halloween. Thanksgiving. Christmas. Though I'm not looking forward to all the misgendering this year. I'll be correcting people a million times. 

Thursday, March 23, 2017

Post-Op for Wisdom Teeth/Broken Tooth removal


So the bruising has gotten worse from yesterday. I still cannot chew, or else I might bite the side of my cheek.  Also, the headaches come and go right now. I'm hungry and starting to get sick of liquid/soupy shit but I'm just gonna have to fuckin' deal. 

I can't have seeds/rice/tiny nuts because apparently they'll get stuck in the holes and get healed over which can create problems.

I went to the allergist last week and they made me do a breathing test. Apparently, I have some sort of blockage so they gave me an inhaler... JUST WHAT I DON'T NEED. MORE MEDS. It helps, though. Sometimes I do have trouble breathing. Especially with all this swelling.

I return to work Monday but I'm hanging out with my girlfriend, Kitty this weekend which I'm going to TRY LIKE HELL to make fun. Hopefully, I can stop being socially awkward for awhile. 

My hair is a MESS. I can't shower at the moment because I'm doing a chem allergy test right now; it comes off tomorrow. I also go and have my mouth looked out tomorrow, before the allergist so they can check the healing. I haven't had A LOT of pain, but I can tell when the Ibuprofen is wearing off sometimes. Also, my right eye has had trouble seeing today because of the swelling pressure of my jaw/cheek. 

I was able to finally make another NOG SMITE Morning vid for my YouTube channel. I'd like to do the next part of FFXV but it's like, I'm still so busy with trying to get my insurance straightened out and dealing with my mouth, hunger issues, trying to get on T, etc. 

I'd like to start being able to calm down after being hyped up for so many months but like.. I'm still waiting for my application for insurance to do things. I mean... I have my next HRT meeting on April 6th. I understand my insurance may not be able to cover T but I still need insurance for my medications. I CANNOT be without them or else.. like, it'll be like when I tried to stop taking paroxetine on my own, I'll curl up into a scared, fucked up, mentally scarred little ball.

But seriously, a lot has happened; and there's still a lot more coming in the future.

I pray my healing continues to go well.

Thanks for taking the time to read this! <3


Friday, October 14, 2016

Inner thoughts

After completely swearing off even trying to find a relationship the circles come full roundness... uh, what?

Doesn't matter.

I know that the two guys I still find extremely attractive, and several others are all taken, and that's okay. There's nothing wrong with a bit of fantasizing as long as they're not married.

Noted in my book.

God dangit my hands are cold!!!

Mostly my right hand, haha.

Uhm... let me think...

I don't have much of an update for this post, even though its been awhile. 


SO THIS IS HERE! HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA!

Arin's shooten his lazers.

I've started figuring out my body a bit better and TMI probably but I think if I push my thinking forward I can keep myself from having my period. 

The problem with thought bodily blocking is it has to be constant, letting my guard down and giving in even for a moment means that it could hit.

But i'm really happy that i've figured out a part of myself.

FtM, with the name of Matt.