Tuesday, March 1, 2016

It's late

It's late... and I've barely done anything today.

I've been in alot of pain, and am on 600mg of Ibuprofen right now.

My body is currently weak, and my body dysphoria is high right now.

As a genderfluid being, who perceives hirself however as mostly male one thing really affects me and its something I do not wish to talk about.

I wish I could literally rid my body of this part.

But that would be seen as mutilation.

Anyways, I was both glad and yet unsatisfied with someone's message today. The beginning of it gave me just enough confidence boost to rid myself of the depression that I had previously been headed for.

Here's the chat (names removed for privacy sake):

Let's not dance around this... Just marry me already!
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Lol
You don't even know me
The power of the warfstach compels me!
Warfstache but sure lol
I don't even know what you look like!
Oh xcus m I forgot th
I don't even know if your nonmonogamous.
Hold on you'll love this!
Nonmonogamous?
I'm polyamorous
Oh cool so am I colonthree emoticon
Ohhj
And uh, what do you look like?
Hold on!
Ok
It was cold don't judge meh!
You live in Missouri?
I know I'm ridiculous!
I'm in Mississippi lol
Oh
Haha yeah it sucks here lol
My current bf is in Missouri
XD
Where are you?
I'm in Ohio
It sucks here too
Well we seem to have created a triangle haven't we?
Well more like an L I have no direct connection to him!
Haha yeah
I wouldn't mind having a erect connection to you wink emoticon
I meant direct
Pfft
Calm down
Don't treat me like a toy
No fuckboys allowed zone here
Hahaha I'm just joking lol I'm actually more interested in the gaming!
Yes well
Its gaming.
I can't honestly say much more
I'm a weirdo
And Markimoo too cx
Markimoo is mine and I don't share!
Excuse me.
Mark is whoever becomes his.
You heard me!
He doesn't belong to--
Stfu.
I don't play around this way.
I'll seduce him with games!
.....
That's rude.
Mark is NOT a piece of meat.
Hahaha girl I'm just playing calm yoself!
... I cannot.
I hate fangirls who do that.
Fight me IRL! I'll reak ya I sweat on me mum!
Sword between your eyes.
Touche Stanley!
I also have a rainbow shuriken and knife.
Pics or GTFO!
Not at home yet
Just finished work
Well I'll wait colonthree emoticon
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This was so you!
We'll see. I was on the verge of breaking down when you sent me that msg.
You're car? O.O
Uhm
My mental state
Oh well that I understand lol
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I'm having bad dysphoria
And a lot of stressful bs is going on
Hold on lemme Google that
Dysphoria of gender btw
Well no wonder you're in a bad mood I'm sorry :c
You look like a girl lol
I don't give a fuck /what/ I look like
My mind is 75%male
My mind is 75% tacos
-eye roll-
Health before food, and if I had the money I'd go all the way with it too
The other 25% is dirty jokes lol
Masculine mind
How old are you?
I'm 29 chronologically lol
.....
92 biologically!
...
11 maturi... Well you get it!
Now I'm going to ignore you. Jokes are fine and all but I prefer friends who can be serious.
Ignoring is rude and in can be serious but if you're gonna be rude I'm gonna cry frown emoticon
You know what I don't like you


I'm not really quite sure what to say about that... due to the bad rep that fangirls give the Markiplier Fandom I get tired of hearing about it, he caught me at a bad moment and yeah, ignoring someones rude. I don't really know how to explain myself. Not being right in the head, or just feeling not good in general is not a good time to get me on my soap box. If the guy was kidding, yeah I apologize, but if not...

Noone is a piece of meat.

No lady, man or such should be looked at as such.


Next thing.

A few days ago I posted this on facebook:

I wish con went on forever, or I wish there was an entire city or town that revolved around cosplay, Japanese affectionato, and all the really awesomeness that brings otakus and nerds together.
I wish I had the smarts to make this place.
    Of something incredible!
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    Of something that helps many!
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    Of something bigger!
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    I just want to be apart of it!
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    I wouldn't have to run it.
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    The "place" would have a council and a mayor.
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    You belong to this planet just like those so called "normal".
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    You, artistic, possibly socially awkward people deserve to be loved just like anyone else!
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    You're worth so much more.
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    But no ones worthless. Just because you can't play sports or don't want to.
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    I live there quite often!
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    And I've been there!
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    Its just that the people around them don't or can't understand them.
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    But there's nothing wrong with them.
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    This dream... Life isn't realistic without others help but no one is willing to do all the permits and legal stuff to give their children a close knit town! Instead we get outcast children who feel like they don't belong, hide it away to be "normal",
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    Instead of arguing over trump or bern it'd be naruto to one piece or fruits basket to ouran high, ect
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    Going door to door would be young ash ketchum, neighbors would be like, "you picked charmander? Good choice he was mine too!"
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    The Lil angry flowey cosplays on babies during Halloween.
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    I would love watching happy families of otakus.
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    I would work for it.
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    I would back it.

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